watching cnn with branden i got goosebumps. i remember four years ago, turning on the tv in my basement apartment alone, when they still couldn’t call it. going to sleep and dreaming of ohio turning blue; waking up to a world where i was wrong. and i remember the complete and utter despair of that day. the feeling that no matter what i do i, and everyone i love, is going to be annihilated in this world. that there is no justice. the feeling that nothing would ever change.
watching everyone jump around and scream in that chicago park; i felt the exact opposite of that. that despair turned inside out. i know it’s more complicated than that, i know there are still plenty of reasons to despair. but this moment is a brilliant one and i feel overjoyed. joy is the only word.

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