what have i been doing?
*staying up until 5am almost every day
*thinking about creating visual art (something i don’t consider myself to be “good” at but sometimes do for fun) but not doing it. the only thing i ever feel like sharing is mail art, which is still pretty fun:
*trying to read “how to write a book proposal” in the stifling heat of my apartment (because a certain author i love told me i should!!!)
* reading this like, every day. it has healed me so much and i only wish that i had read it a year or two ago so i wouldn’t have wasted so much time being emotionally abused (i say this of course like it’s my fault for being there and not my expartner’s fault for abusing me). reading that article helped me to realize that his shitty unethical behavior actually WAS abuse, which i did not call it before even though it took the same emotional toll on me as abusive behavior from other people has. duh. duh!
*last night my girlfriend & i were hungry around 2am, so she made us some sushi, which was delicious. then, we got into a talk about “teenage mutant ninja turtles” and decided to watch an episode on the internet. at one point, apropos of NOTHING, master splinter (the rat who gives spiritual guidance, if you’ve forgotten) looked directly at the camera and said, “i really need to stop with these late night sushi snacks!” we FRUCK OUT. there was also another moment of synchronicity with that episode (!) but it’s too cute/romantic to share here, plus it’s not as funny.
*i need help titling my memoir and also making sure the tenses are all correct (which is tricky because it needs to be in two tenses, the current narrative & the flashbacks). also, i am watching that horrible movie “becoming chaz” about everyone’s fave celeb transdude chaz bono, as “research”. ha!